Weird day ..

Humm there's so much to say, and so little time .. [ 3:35 am ] yeah ..it's not that late at least for me ..
Today was supposed to be perfect. Nice hours, but then I screwed all as usual. And then he screwed all too. I was really scared ..one of the worst days of my life [ at least for an hour ] .. We should grab the few days left instead of making them a living hell .. argh ..
Things are also not good at home. Last night I had one of those fights with my mother ..it was the worst fight I ever had with her I think ..
Humm ..so the worst two fights of my life in less than 24 hours ..? How cool is that ? ..
Sometimes, looking at myself I feel strange ..Sometimes I dont even recognize myself ..I was having deep suicidal thoughts last night ..if it wasnt for a very special person I would probably not be around now ..sometimes this life can be so bad dont you think? ..
Well, 6 days until the college stuff being published .. Everyone says that I'll stay here in my land but since I was very umpleasent to the guy [ that damn asshole ] I have a few doubts ..
Anyway I wanna get a job soon. I wanna buy my own stuff without having to hear things like "Oh you'll buy that if I give you the money, I'm the boss here at the house"..Fuck off!
I need to fly! I need to fix my wings .. =]
I love the photo ..me at a cemetery last monday - 4